Weekend Adventures

This weekend has honestly been one of my favorites since I got here because....

MY DADDY AND BROTHER CAME TO SEE ME!

They got in Friday night around 9, picked me up at my apartment, and then we went and saw Ender's Game (which was a pretty great movie, actually). After that (around 12:15ish) we went to Taco Bell for burritos. (That is the latest I have been out since moving here. Pathetic.) We talked and laughed and it was great to be with family. <3

Saturday morning they came over and we walked around BYU campus. We went to the bookstore and the Museum of Art, and the library, and the creamery (graham canyon ice cream, yummmmmm....).

And then it was time to go to the game.

(oh, did I mention it had been raining and snowing the whole day?) We got to the game fairly early, which was a mistake for two reasons: 1) We had reserved seats, 2) even if we didn't have reserved seats, there was TONS of empty seats, & 3) IT WAS FREEZING.

We ended up leaving partway through the first quarter just because it was miserable and the Cougars were SLAUGHTERING ISU. (sorry dad, just had to get my little BYU plug in there.)

After the game, we went to lunch at Brick Oven, which was super delicious, as always. Then, we went over to the DI, where we had many wonderful adventures.

And then they left me :'(

But it's ok because I'll see them in two weeks for {THANKSGIVING!!!!!!} for which I am very excited.

Family.
Food.
Black Friday.

What more can I ask for out of life?

Anyways, they left me, I watched Netflix, and was asleep by 8. (I honestly could NOT stay awake.)


Church today was great and I get to relax for the rest of the day, which will be great prep for the rest of the week. I have a bunch of stuff due at the end of the week and the week after Thanksgiving so I really need to get myself into gear! But as for today, I shall rest.

I hope you all are enjoying this fall/winter weather, wherever you are!

em<3

Adult Tantrums

Little kids have it easy. ok, we all knew this but really think about it. When you're two and something is outrageously unfair and awful you can just throw yourself around and scream and cry and throw things at people. Even though they may not get what they want, I'm sure they feel better about their tiny little lives.

Sadly, this behavior is not acceptable when you're 18. BUT if it were, trust me I'd be all over that right now.

Looking back on the last couple of months of my senior year, I'm a little confused as to why we were so excited to graduate and grow up and take on all of that responsibility.  I should have just relished the last few months seconds with my best friends.

I'm not hating college or anything, I'm just sad that I don't get to experience it with my two best friends. I miss them both like crazy right now. I miss my family and all my other friends too, but I will see most of them over Thanksgiving so it's bearable.

I don't get to see Katie for another 2 months, and I don't get to see Ethan for 2 years. (Actually, less now. ha.) But for reals. Both of those dates seem so far away that I just want to throw a fit. Why did we all have to choose different paths? I'm excited for Katie to go to BYU-Idaho and I know she's gonna love it, and I am definitely excited for Ethan to spend the next two years of his life serving his Heavenly Father and the people of Ecuador but it doesn't make the separation any easier.

It's really odd to go from being surrounded by family and best friends who all understand you pretty well and think you're hilarious (ahemkatieahem) and awesome and pretty and fun and nice and special, and then to be in a place where there's not even one person (yet) who knows you like that. I never had to explain myself because my family and Katie and Ethan just got me.

And now they're gone.

And that's why I want to throw a tantrum.

*end rant*

<3 Em

The Part Where I Start Blogging Again

So, I started this blog a long time ago. And by start, I mean I named it. I meant to start actually posting but I have just been so busy and lazy.   But now I really need to start posting more.

This past week was a crazy whirlwind of emotion and busyness.

First of all, I worked a full 20 hour week for the first time. Because I am fresh out of training, there hasn't been a ton for me to do the last few weeks. This week I was assigned a huge project and I have been working on that, so the hours flew by. This was actually a blessing because it kept my mind off of all of the other crazy things that were going on, but it did lessen my Netflix studying/homework time. It'll be an adjustment for sure, but my pay check will be three times what it was at my other job. So that will definitely be worth it. I really am loving my new job and it came just at the right time. Not to mention, it's related to what I want to be when I grow up and it's literally next door to my apartment complex. And the pay is nice as well. My Heavenly Father knew exactly what I needed and opened the doors for me to get there.

School wasn't actually that awful this week. It's been an interesting semester because each week seems to have a theme. Some weeks I have several papers due, some weeks it's tests, and other weeks it's just reading. My least favorite kind of week is reading week because I'm really not that motivated to finish it. But I did get through a lot of it, so that was good. I'm so grateful I only took 14 credits this semester because I think I would be dying with any more than that.

And then there was the obvious thing that happened this week -- Ethan left.  Honestly though, I feel so much better now than I did before he left. I think I was just really anxious about him leaving and now that he's gone, I feel a lot better. I still miss him more than anything but he's where he's supposed to be and I am so proud of him. He's going to do such a great job. I'm really excited for his P-day so I can get an email and hear how he is doing. It's been strange to go from talking so much to not at all, but thank goodness for snapchat and FaceTime and girlfriends and parents.

After Ethan left and I didn't have anyone to text or call when I was feeling lonely, the lack of friends started to get to me. Moving into an older ward and not meeting lots of Freshman in the dorms has been really hard. I know I'm supposed to be right where I am, but it doesn't necessarily make the being alone part that much easier. I'm trying to push myself out of my little bubble and talk to people I normally wouldn't, but I'm actually like super anti-social and I didn't realize it. ok, I'm not anti-social, I just am kind of awful at making friends. I was so blessed to have amazing friends in high school and I got super comfortable so this whole "new life" stuff hasn't been easy.

It's just a learning curve, and I'm sure I'll figure it out.

I've been doing pretty good with the not crying thing, though. I have only cried when people are super nice to me. Go figure. I cried when his mom sent me an email, and Katie and Bree texted me to ask me how I was doing, and when my parents sent me flowers. And there have been a couple of times that I have just been overwhelmed with everything and cried. But it's only been like once a day, which is honestly not that bad considering I'm such a bawl baby.



I thought it was going to be a horrible week, but I have to say this weekend was much better than I expected. I anticipated much ice cream, tears, and Netflix. ok, there were all three of those but they were in moderation so it's ok. ;) (Except the ice cream. You don't even want to know how much ice cream I have consumed over the last week. It was so bad I have banned myself from it for the rest of the month. Really.)

ANYWAYS.

Friday night, JoAnne (a girl I went to high school with) and I went to the basketball game. It was super nice to see her and to talk to someone who I didn't have to explain my whole life to.

Saturday I did homework all day and watched the BYU game, and then went to dinner at Brick Oven with two of my roommates. And then went shopping with Kamilla. After we got home, we watched a movie and it was super great.

Church today was pretty good, and then I went to a Baroque concert with JoAnne tonight. Let's just say it was a... unique experience. But I'm glad I went because it got me out of the apartment, and it was fun to be with JoAnne.

So it was a decent weekend, all things considered. I'm really grateful that I was able to do so much this weekend to distract me from school and work and Ethan being gone. And it made me feel not so alone, which is really great. I've been super blessed and part of that is from prayer and scripture study, and I think part of it is because Ethan is serving. My Heavenly Father has been helping me lots this week.

Let's hope this week goes just as good as this last week has. And just as fast. (I'm really shocked at how fast it has gone.)

Sorry this post is like as long as Moby Dick.
Or eternity.
Or a microwave minute.
But really, sorry.

ok, I'm done for reals.

Goodnight world. I"m sure I'll write again someday.

<3 Em