The Part Where I Start Blogging Again

So, I started this blog a long time ago. And by start, I mean I named it. I meant to start actually posting but I have just been so busy and lazy.   But now I really need to start posting more.

This past week was a crazy whirlwind of emotion and busyness.

First of all, I worked a full 20 hour week for the first time. Because I am fresh out of training, there hasn't been a ton for me to do the last few weeks. This week I was assigned a huge project and I have been working on that, so the hours flew by. This was actually a blessing because it kept my mind off of all of the other crazy things that were going on, but it did lessen my Netflix studying/homework time. It'll be an adjustment for sure, but my pay check will be three times what it was at my other job. So that will definitely be worth it. I really am loving my new job and it came just at the right time. Not to mention, it's related to what I want to be when I grow up and it's literally next door to my apartment complex. And the pay is nice as well. My Heavenly Father knew exactly what I needed and opened the doors for me to get there.

School wasn't actually that awful this week. It's been an interesting semester because each week seems to have a theme. Some weeks I have several papers due, some weeks it's tests, and other weeks it's just reading. My least favorite kind of week is reading week because I'm really not that motivated to finish it. But I did get through a lot of it, so that was good. I'm so grateful I only took 14 credits this semester because I think I would be dying with any more than that.

And then there was the obvious thing that happened this week -- Ethan left.  Honestly though, I feel so much better now than I did before he left. I think I was just really anxious about him leaving and now that he's gone, I feel a lot better. I still miss him more than anything but he's where he's supposed to be and I am so proud of him. He's going to do such a great job. I'm really excited for his P-day so I can get an email and hear how he is doing. It's been strange to go from talking so much to not at all, but thank goodness for snapchat and FaceTime and girlfriends and parents.

After Ethan left and I didn't have anyone to text or call when I was feeling lonely, the lack of friends started to get to me. Moving into an older ward and not meeting lots of Freshman in the dorms has been really hard. I know I'm supposed to be right where I am, but it doesn't necessarily make the being alone part that much easier. I'm trying to push myself out of my little bubble and talk to people I normally wouldn't, but I'm actually like super anti-social and I didn't realize it. ok, I'm not anti-social, I just am kind of awful at making friends. I was so blessed to have amazing friends in high school and I got super comfortable so this whole "new life" stuff hasn't been easy.

It's just a learning curve, and I'm sure I'll figure it out.

I've been doing pretty good with the not crying thing, though. I have only cried when people are super nice to me. Go figure. I cried when his mom sent me an email, and Katie and Bree texted me to ask me how I was doing, and when my parents sent me flowers. And there have been a couple of times that I have just been overwhelmed with everything and cried. But it's only been like once a day, which is honestly not that bad considering I'm such a bawl baby.



I thought it was going to be a horrible week, but I have to say this weekend was much better than I expected. I anticipated much ice cream, tears, and Netflix. ok, there were all three of those but they were in moderation so it's ok. ;) (Except the ice cream. You don't even want to know how much ice cream I have consumed over the last week. It was so bad I have banned myself from it for the rest of the month. Really.)

ANYWAYS.

Friday night, JoAnne (a girl I went to high school with) and I went to the basketball game. It was super nice to see her and to talk to someone who I didn't have to explain my whole life to.

Saturday I did homework all day and watched the BYU game, and then went to dinner at Brick Oven with two of my roommates. And then went shopping with Kamilla. After we got home, we watched a movie and it was super great.

Church today was pretty good, and then I went to a Baroque concert with JoAnne tonight. Let's just say it was a... unique experience. But I'm glad I went because it got me out of the apartment, and it was fun to be with JoAnne.

So it was a decent weekend, all things considered. I'm really grateful that I was able to do so much this weekend to distract me from school and work and Ethan being gone. And it made me feel not so alone, which is really great. I've been super blessed and part of that is from prayer and scripture study, and I think part of it is because Ethan is serving. My Heavenly Father has been helping me lots this week.

Let's hope this week goes just as good as this last week has. And just as fast. (I'm really shocked at how fast it has gone.)

Sorry this post is like as long as Moby Dick.
Or eternity.
Or a microwave minute.
But really, sorry.

ok, I'm done for reals.

Goodnight world. I"m sure I'll write again someday.

<3 Em